The morning dusty desert light came, and we were told that we needed to harden our vehicles. Hardening a vehicle involves covering it with sandbags in the hope of making it more bullet- and shrapnel-proof. Sandbags were placed on the fenders to protect the engine compartment from live fire. Sandbags could be stacked inside the truck doors to create a rolling bunker, which a soldier could duck down behind to take cover from rounds being fired at the truck. Sandbags on the floor protect from landmines.
Dennis, the person I was initially assigned to ride with on the day we pulled out of Claremont, New Hampshire, and attended a ceremony at Hillsboro, followed by the trip to our new home at Fort Devens, Massachusetts, before we finally shipped out to Southwest Asia, was a bit more passionate about hardening than the rest of us. That included his partner, PJ, as well. Many attempts to assure Dennis that enough was enough when it came to how many sandbags to put on a truck were ineffective. Dennis was not having it, and, much to PJ's dismay, their vehicle was significantly heavier than ours.
Dennis was concerned; we were, after all, going to be part of a ground offensive in just a matter of hours. We were all concerned. Something about the sandbag issue nagged at me a little. I thought back to that day at the Hillsboro Armory. A giant ceremony sent us on our way, saying goodbye to our families as we filed out of the drill hall floor. As we walked out the side door to mount up our trucks, there was a friendly chaplain handing out the Cliff Notes version of the Bible, by which I mean Psalms, Proverbs, and the New Testament. I took one; Dennis, on the other hand, held up his right hand in a "stop" gesture. "Oh no, thank you." He said it as if he'd just been offered magic beans. There was almost ridicule in his declining the offer.
Once our vehicles were hardened, we were sent to the staging area to hook up to the trailer that we would be connected to for this engagement. Our trailer consisted of MLS (Multi-Launch Rocket Systems). Typically, these are never transported with all 3 main components on the same vehicle, but this was war. We had the rockets, the armor-piercing 155 millimeter projectiles, and the primers. As the story goes, our mission is to haul ammunition in and body bags out. Uncertainty reached a new high for me on this day. These are records I keep breaking. Jeff and I took some photos as we prepared our faithful truck 32. Czech Brothers Trucking was prepared to go.
We were moved back out onto MSR Dodge and then north, further than I have ever needed to go. We drove for a while, then we were pulled off the road to the west. We learned that we were in a 110-truck convoy. We were supporting the 1st and the 3rd Armor Division, who would be hitting Kuwait by flanking it, invading the southern Iraqi border.
We held on tight to our Czech Brothers personas; it made the uncertainty more palatable. When we parked, we were given very little instruction. All we knew was that we were 110 trucks from mixed companies and that the word would be given at any time to move north into Iraq.
The hours at the staging area took forever. Jeff and I were following Dennis and PJ. Every now and then, we would see a sandbag get thrown off their truck by a fed-up PJ who was literally surrounded by them. At times, it was so intense that it was nothing to see a very animated PJ, fling the door of the truck open, and throw a sandbag out into the desert as far as he could.
As night fell, I was talking with Dennis, who was almost paralyzed with fear. I told him about how I believed there was a creator. I told him how only a year and a half ago, I should have died from where alcohol had put me, but someone reached down and pulled me out, back up into the land of the living. Live or die, I knew somehow, some way, I was good. Dennis had no spiritual base. It was like I was speaking a language he could not understand. He was a man without a god, and for the first time in my life, I saw what that looked like. Selfishly, I was thankful it was not me. There but for the grace of God, go I indeed.
Jeff was actually an incredible comfort to Dennis, and he took the time to reassure him that he was among friends and to point out many reasons why Dennis could be confident. Jeff and I always approached everything from our own unique angles, and in doing so, we were an excellent team. I had a great deal of respect for this friend who had become my brother. He was nothing like me, but we met on common ground somewhere that worked well for us.
As the hours passed, we stared down the barrel of our uncertain future. There was no reference known on the face of the earth that could tell us what came next. The only foundation, the only static structure, was the faith within us, whatever that might be. The hours seemed to drag on for years, slowly taunting us, making home seem lifetimes away.
After dinner, "that one MRE" (so much for a steak dinner the night before the invasion), we changed the configuration of our trucks, and we assembled into a single line formation. I knew that sleep was critical at this point. Jeff climbed into the truck, and I onto the hood. It was the most blissful place for slumber that I have ever known.
I was worried I might not be able to sleep. On my Walkman, I scanned the night stratosphere for the BBC World Service out of London, and Voice of America out of Africa, trying to get an overview of what was happening with us. As I listened, I let the static of the amplitude modulation slowly drift me off to sleep. It was thankfully a lovely sleep, one of those in which, as you drift off, you feel the waves of rest and relief overtake you. I could ask for nothing better.
Minutes later, I was blasted out of my sleep by the sound of missiles incoming. Scud missiles were coming in. Here! In the desert! Since coming up here, we have not had to deal with these! Now, Saddam must be scraping the bottom of the barrel, or he knows hundreds of thousands of us were staged just south of the Kuwaiti and Iraqi borders. Angry Patriot missiles exploded into action. 4 explosions per unit, taking off in a fury of earth-shaking, internal organ-rumbling spectre. The subsequent detonations in the sky as the Patriots took down the SCUDs and debris fell to the earth. Slowly, the earth quieted again.
I pulled the sleeping bag over my head: "Stupid idiots!" I thought. "Can't even get a decent night's sleep before an invasion!" I suddenly saw myself from outside the situation, and it made me laugh. I was such a different person from the boy who experienced my first SCUD missile attack back in Khobar.
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